Vicissitudes

From last few days, I have been facing too many changes in life. The changes range from my personal life to professional life. I always use to say that change is the thing, which drives the world. And I believe everything undergoes through the changes.On my personal front, I am an ambivert. I don’t take much time to be amicable with you. Nope, I may take. For few people, I am an extrovert and for few I am an introvert. Anyways, I hardly get time to socialize. Hardly I get time to catch my friends. Few months ago, there was a time when all of my friends and me were unemployed and we used to dream working in an AC office. We used to dream that we will be earning and will avail each and every sale, which is very frequent in Delhi markets. One gets to see sale on every second month. But we are putting my fingers crossed when the time will come when all my plans will get materialized. I earn a decent amount what a fresher gets at a start. Initially, when I had joined my office, I used to be silent. And never used to talk to anyone. The time has gone when I used to get secluded from others. See the change. Now I don’t want to miss anything and always eager to be a part of each and every opportunity and initiative. Now I am a member of most of the committees of my office. My responsibilities have been increased. Initially, I was involved in a project. Now I am the responsible for four projects. The sense of accountability exists there. Initially I never want to feel the presence of appreciation or applause. Now I am ready to take every challenge. I have an appetite of appreciation. I keep my ‘can do’ attitude. Besides, I talk to all my colleagues. And I am the most talkative guy of my department. I am always open to learning and changes. But since last few days, my office has really made my life hell. I have been burdened with so many responsibilities that I hardly get time for my friends or my personal life. I was a voracious reader. Now I miss those days when I used to read books throughout the day. More and more books are getting added in my wish list. I am really waiting for the moment when I will be able to complete al of them. More than books, I am missing the news of the corporate world. I was a guy who used to update myself with each and every corporate happening. Now I just get a glimpse of what’s happening there.

Sometimes, my responsibilities seem beyond my capacity. I work for 13-14 hrs in a day. I have been working to gain an experience. So that when I will be doing MBA further, I can show my experience. But I really dunno where my life is moving. I have been quarantined from the outer world. I had promised my self that I would be blogging more often. But the things do not seem to be in the right direction. I couldn’t realize my capacity and had started taking every responsibility whatever was coming in my way. Even I can’t withdraw myself from the responsibilities, which I have been doing since last few months. Because I do not want to miss any chance which gives me recognition in the company. I am pretty greedy in this case. I do not know till how long I will be suffering with the same routine or schedule. I have tried lot many times to reschedule everything but my office hours ransack everything. Sometimes I feel I am not les than in any cage. God knows what the destiny has for me. Whether I will be able to achieve my long-term goals. Give me a break to think..…...probably it may work…...